do u believe in Him?

this is gg to be a boring post..
u can chose nt to read it..
and no offence to those who believe in God..

i came across this line..
"He may be around, but He is forever sleeping"
somehow or rather,
i kinda believe in that..

why?
look around..
ever since sept 11, we have not gone past a week or a month without hearing that a mass of ppl jus died..
i mean.. is killing innocent ppl good..
u never know that the next kid they kill,
might be able to find the cure for AIDS in future or something..
so far, they hav not gotten what they want..
but seriously.. what do they want?
domination?
the earth is already dying..
instead of vieing for power..
they should be putting their resources together to save the earth..
where is the God that people say all the time?

why cant things be peaceful jus like before..
even funny things happen in my family..
it used to be so good and happy..
where everyone have fun talking and us kids, playing
now..
i can hear gossips every now and then..
i can only say only the women in my family are capable..
in a sense that women in the family marry good men and have good life..
but the guys..
not tryin to say my uncles are useless..
but..
they dont even give money to my grandparents..
they jus rely on my mum and aunts for everything..
like..they are your parents also..
and they are the sons...
they are ones being doted on or whatever..
and they actually had the nerve to tell my aunt during my uncle's funeral
"dont want lah, that one so expensive"
like hello, your brother jus died?
cant u even fork out some money for him to go decently?
is not alot..jus a few hundred..
compared to the amt and effort that my mum n aunts put in..
is really nothing..
i am not making that up..
i heard from my aunt..
actually..i overheard lah..but is not a crime what..

even though i am raised in a catholic sch for 11 years..
i never really believe that He is there..
i do believe in Him..
but not that exaggerating..
actually i think my belief in Him is slowly fading away..
but i guess when one gets older..
such things just doesnt matter anymore..
so for now,
i think i go with the "He is forever sleeping"
cause i really think he is..

i told u this was a boring post..
goodbye.

B

thats what i got for GP project..
good enough..

yesterday was my cousin's kelly 21st birthday..
i upload the pics when she send them to me..
her theme was shiny..
so i bought a somewhat shiny top..
it was nt bad..
the food was good..
i ate quite alot..
haha..i was hungry okay..
plus i didnt eat the whole day..

i took this when i was sittin by the pool..

may nt be very nice..
but i like it can alrdy..
haha..

n today..
went vivo w her family n my family..
we had imperial herbal garden for dinner..
total rip off i tell u..
one of the dish was mee fen w crab..
guess how much it cost..
$96 bucks!!
the entire dinner cost 500bucks..
i am tellin u..
TOTAL RIP OFF!
n their standard drop according to my uncle..
and they had afternoon coffee at this place called
RED, WHITE AND PURE..
another rip off..
they sold tiny chocolates at 4bucks per piece..
4 bucks!! i could buy a whole packet alrdy..
n the afternoon coffee cost 89bucks..
and my dad say the coffee taste like plain water w colouring..
and their so called natural spring water cost 8bucks per bottle..
even ice mountain 1.5ml is cheaper and bigger bottle..
what a rip off..

ohh and one more thing..
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY KELLY!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PETRINA OW!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY in advance PAULINE CHEONG!!

goodbye.

Year of the Pig

Happy Lunar New Year!!!

i am tired from today's visiting..
ate so much..
there will be more tmr..
and there are ppl at my hse now..
and every new year..
i am the "maria" of the hse..
cause i serve the drinks..
so u want my services..
come my hse and wish my family..
gtg now..

goodbye.

emotionless

i dont know what is happening to me..
but nowadays..
i feel so..so..
emotionless is the word..
i dont feel excited..
i dont feel sad..
i dont feel happy..
i dont feel angry..
i feel nothing..
i cant bring myself to smile..

i dont know what is wrong..
i have been out this week..
so it cant be that i have been cooped up in the hse for too long..
i hope this does nt last long..
sorry if these days i have been a little cold..
i cant help it..

and now my leg is cramping from walking and carrying stuff..
add an ulcer to my mouth..

i think is the worst chinese new year feeling i ever had..
ppl are excited..
and here i am all black-faced..
i want to talk to someone..
but at the same time...
dont feel like telling anyone..
cause i dont think ppl will understand..
i think is enough..

goodbye.

Valentine's Day

i dont have a date..
so guess how i spend it..

1.help my mum wrap hong baos
2.exchange my rented books

haha..yes..
such a boring way..
but at least i did something..
but valentine is not what i am lookin forward to..
CHINESE NEW YEAR is what i am waiting for..
2days..
cannot wait..
then i can smell the money rolling it..
haha..
it feels good to be not married..
haha..

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!
those that msg me..
sorry i didnt reply last night..
i was too tired..
so here's wishing everyone!

goodbye.

Grammy's

i am over the results alrdy..
and my mum hav been nice to me..
so okay lah..

Grammy's today was awesome..
yes..i woke up at 9am to watch..
it was more of a performance show than a awards show..
all the performances were great..
everyone shld watch it..
its worth the time..
and the stage damn cool..
u know like past Grammy's hav boring stage..
it always in gold..
but this year..
RED was the colour..
it look awesome..
and they had 2 moshpits also..
but no one was moshing lah..
cause they were wearing gowns..
haha..
so watch it ppl..

and one thing..
Scarlett Johannson..
(the actress who acted in Scoop and dated Joah Hartnett)
she is actually recording her first album..
err...
i wonder how she sounds..
haha..

ohh..n they had this my grammy moment thing..
is a contest organised by grammy adcadamy..
is something like amercian idol..
but the winner (voted by viwers during the show)
get to perform at the show w an artiste..
and the artiste was justin timberlake..
the winner sang a slow song then justin's MY LOVE..
the slow song is okay..
but she cannot dance..
haha..
i was laughing when she tried to dance w justin timberlake..
but it was good cause she could at least sing lah..

this post very long..
time to go..
i think my dad watchin encore telecast..
i go watch again..
haha..

goodbye.

D7

fuck..
my maths results..
i still fail..
despite the hard work i put in..
what the point..
seriously..

i jus hope my mum doesnt make me take it again..
and is not like i didnt know how to do..
i fucking could do the paper..
why cant they jus give me a bloody C6..
sorry for the language..
i jus need to get it out..

goodbye.

i am disappointed..
because wong shuyu actually scored the lowest in the quiz..
is not that she actually scored the lowest..
but even hayley scored higher than her..
and i see shuyu more than i see hayley..
haiz..
it means shuyu doesnt know me..
how sad..
haha..

and hayl..
u actually gt the animal that i most scared of correct..
which everyone else gt it wrong..
(except for clar who gt it right also)
and i never even tell anyone!!
lucky guess maybe..
haha..

i am tired..

goodbye.

the result of extreme boredom..
haha..

ehh people..
go do the quiz below..
is under the tagboard..
write your name..
(not any funny funny name that only u know or something)
haha..

goodbye.

i am finally putting braces..
after 3 CNY..
i know..i abit slow..
my mum finally brought me to the dentist..
actually..
i jus dont want my aunt (father's sis-in-law)
to say anything abt my teeth anymore..
apparantly my mum says my that aunt put braces at age 50..
can u actually believe that!

and the dentist say i shld polish my teeth or something..
say my teeth gt uneven colouring..
he even say i shld get it done once a year..
and that my gum is not very good..
i could get gum diease..
fine.

i be having the x-ray on monday..
but i kinda hope they put the braces after CNY..
then at least i can still enjoy some goodies..
haha..
i think i shld do my article..

goodbye.