emotionless

i dont know what is happening to me..
but nowadays..
i feel so..so..
emotionless is the word..
i dont feel excited..
i dont feel sad..
i dont feel happy..
i dont feel angry..
i feel nothing..
i cant bring myself to smile..

i dont know what is wrong..
i have been out this week..
so it cant be that i have been cooped up in the hse for too long..
i hope this does nt last long..
sorry if these days i have been a little cold..
i cant help it..

and now my leg is cramping from walking and carrying stuff..
add an ulcer to my mouth..

i think is the worst chinese new year feeling i ever had..
ppl are excited..
and here i am all black-faced..
i want to talk to someone..
but at the same time...
dont feel like telling anyone..
cause i dont think ppl will understand..
i think is enough..

goodbye.